Hi Tee

Thanks so much! ❤️

I hope that you’re having a good holiday?

He has been having a really bad fever that is barely being controlled. He’s only allowed one more dose of medicine today and then he’s not allowed any more for 12 hours. We will have to go to hospital to stay, so doctors can help with the fever. He’s already been to A&E once already.

It’s really wild knowing that medicine is helping to save your child’s life. I’m pretty sure he would have died without it. ❤️

Hi Everyone

My son isn’t well. If you pray and wouldn’t mind praying for him, that would be much appreciated. ❤️

Hi Everyone

My earliest memory of this kind of thing would be when I was around 4. My biological mother was asleep most of the time even then.

My younger brother was crying because he was hungry. I was in charge of looking after him.

I was afraid that she would wake up. We weren’t supposed to eat without permission. He kept begging and would not be quiet, even though I asked him to. He was so hungry. I was too.

It would be bad if we woke her up. I got a stool and a pan and heat up a tin of beans on the stove. Maybe if I was quiet she wouldn’t notice? I made toast as well and we both ate.

You! Get up! Why are you leaving a four year old in charge of a three year old? Do you not care what happens to them? They could both have gotten hurt. What if they were burned? Toddlers have very thin skin. They could have been seriously hurt. How could you not feed your precious babies? What is wrong with you? You are sick and need help! I cannot believe that anyone could be so irresponsible.

Look kids, do you want lots of yummy food to eat? As much as you can eat whenever you want. And you don’t need to fetch it. And you don’t need to worry about looking after your brother. You can play and even make noise. You don’t have to worry anymore. I’m going to take care of you and keep you safe.

You did such a good job taking care of your brother, you’re a good helper. You don’t need to help anymore. You can just be you. Focus on being a kid for a change. Relax, have fun, make mistakes. That is what you should be doing. ❤️

I want to go home.

You’re safe now. This is your home. You don’t have to be scared and alone anymore. I’m here for you. ❤️

Hi Thomas

Thanks so much! You remind me of a good friend. ❤️ Yes, things are much better for me now. 😊

*trigger warning*

My biological mother, when angry with us. Would strip us naked and beat us in front of each other. She would use lots of different things to hit us with. Hairbrushes, ping pong paddles, her shoes, a fly swatter. She didn’t want to hurt her hand.

Then she would put us in our own rooms and beat us again separately. Afterwards we were not to leave the room for any reason. No food, no water, no bathroom. Not to have any fun. Just sit there alone being ignored. Not even allowed to cry unless it was silent.

The only way she would let us out and stop this was when I would write an apology letter to her and slide it under her door.

I’m so sorry that you experienced this. I can tell how much it hurt you and how frequently it happened. It’s okay to let it out. I’m here for you. What a horrible person and such an awful way to treat children. Thank goodness you never have to see her again. I’m so sorry for everything that you’ve been through and everything she did to you. You are safe now. Even in your memories, I won’t let her. STOP! ✋ Don’t lay a hand on them. I won’t allow your cruelty to continue.

Oh so this is what the therapist meant by they can sometimes talk back when rescripting the memory.

Who do you think you are?

I’m your daughter and I won’t allow this to happen anymore.

You can’t take them away.

Yes, I can. I’m not afraid of you anymore and they deserve to be safe, loved and taken care of properly. If you try to stop me, I will defend myself. Come on, let’s get out of here. You don’t need to be afraid anymore.

She’ll hurt us.

No, she won’t. You don’t ever have to go back. I promise. Here, you can hold my hand if you want to. It’s okay. Listen. She isn’t even saying anything anymore. She’s just letting you go.

It still hurts.

I know it still hurts. I’m sorry. She should never have done that and should be ashamed of herself. I’m here for you. You never have to be alone and afraid again. You’re a good girl and you deserve to be safe and happy. Perhaps we can figure that out together. Ice cream. For breakfast? Good lord! Okay, but not every day. I love you. ❤️

You can do this, I promise. I know you can because I am you.

I don’t want you to go. I won’t, I’m always in here. ❤️ I’m here for you. Not just for your family and friends, but for you as well. You are just as worthy of care as anyone else. ❤️