Although working from home might make you feel the need to procrastinate , it definitely makes you feel more comfortable and at ease. You dont feel pressured to do good in front of people ( like you usually would at a work place). As long as you can finish your work without slacking off or getting caught up in something else i think working at home can be a positive experience , you can play music to keep you motivated, or have some of your favorite snacks next to you, also doing interesting projects rather than boring ones will help you stay on top of your work. If youre working on boring topics then youre going to be more prone to procrastinate.

I love that you were so open with this post because it makes me realize how im not alone. I literally feel the same way, i have a great boyfriend, a great family and a decent place to live and im constantly always overthinking and feeling a struggle going on internally. I think if he really loves you he wouldnt be jealous of your job AT ALL, love is wanting the other person to be happy selflessly, regardless of his depression or situation, he should never portray any signs of jealousy because that comes from a selfish state of mind, youre his girlfriend he should be happy that youre striving for success. As human beings we can never come to a moment of complete satisfaction as long as we have desire. You need to learn how to be content with yourself, and your life, and be content with the way things are, however dont let this stop you from striving to be your best self. Fear is the opposite of love, and it sounds like its ruining you right now because you feel like youll never know if theres a ” right one” But all of that “right one” is bs, if you feel a connection with that person and they feel the same exact way toward you, and you want them to be happy and they want you to be happy then thats all that matters. You cant be stuck in the future or the past and you cant worry about wasting time either because that itself is wasting time. You just have to ask yourself, do i really want to be with this person? are we benefiting eachothers lives for the better? Do i actually selflessly love this person for who they are despite all their flaws? Love isnt supposed to be all butterflies and rainbows, when you truly love someone you learn to accept all their flaws, even if hes depressed youll get through it with him if you really cherish him as a person . Be greatful for what you have in your life now, even the tiniest things, and you will accumulate so much more just by sending out feelings of gratitude into the universe. Dont think ten steps ahead, always live in the present moment because its all that you have, all of the time, its always here, if you get caught up in the future or the past then you will lose yourself completely because youre worrying about situations that havent even happened yet , and still allowing yourself to be the person you were in your past relationships, which will stop you from growing into a person you want to be ! i hope this helped and i wish you the best 🙂

Oh my god i was literally going through the same thing last week, for about two weeks straight. I had a deadline for a business project and i would literally break night thinking about how i needed to do it, picturing different negative scenerios that could happen if i didnt complete it on time. Everything ended up going just fine. Truth is, it really all is in your mind. You have to trust yourself, and know that you can diminish your own anxiety because ultimitely you are the one that is creating it and it is not seperate from you. Once you finish everything you need to do for your deadlines, you will feel less stressed because you will have gotten everything out the way. I find it hard to do meditation sometimes when there is a lot on my mind, but its helpful to take five minutes and set an intention that youll only focus on your breath for five minutes and nothing else, and you can set an alarm so youre not sitting there waiting till the five minutes are over. Give your mind some clarity, and breathe , and know that everything passes and everything is temporary so all of the re occuring thoughts you have will soon fade away weather you believe it or not. I am an overthinker constantly having the same self limiting thoughts all the time, but you have to realize that you are the creator of your own universe and that nothing has to effect you if you dont let it, you choose your thoughts and emotions all the time and you have complete control over what you feel, dont lose touch with the power within you because you are the power ! i hope this helped and i hope you get a good nights sleep, try listening to binurial beats with headphones before you sleep and let it play throughout the whole night, its a type of music that releases theta and alpha waves to help you fall asleep faster, also chamomile tea helps me relax, as well as yoga 🙂 we all go through rough spots in our lives , youre not alone and you will get through it , best of luck . Also dont keep it together for anyone, live for yourself, be happy for yourself, and others around you will be positively effected by your happiness, when youre worried about keeping it together for everyone you just fall apart more because you feel more pressure to act okay for the people around you but this is your life, and you need to be happy for yourself, and happy with yourself so you can be happy for others.