Dear Crown,

Depression , anxiety , PTSD are all names. Its left to your choice with which you want to associate with or not at all. You have pretty much handled everything strong from young age . You are a very strong willed independent person, very proud of you not many will be able to do what you’ve done. So this must not be much difficult to find your way through this. You need time for yourself with no commitments and obligations. Start working on small things first. Set a routine aside for yourself alone including exercise, meditation, yoga, therapy sessions, a hobby project wanting to do since long. Don’t expect or think about results just do it, follow this for a while like few months to a year get used to the routine as some calmness sets in you will start figuring out what you need and what you want. But for all this you need patience , discipline and commitment. Trust in the journey.

Dear Kylee,

I appreciate you giving a thought over my point of view. I am really sorry to hear about the situation with your father. Kylee listen you don’t have to blame and beat yourself for the break-up, any relationship is two sided  and as you said you were trying to look over his flaws.  You mentioned “When we broke up he said that im so open and honest and such a great girlfriend… it makes me think then why wouldnt he want me? and it leaves me feeling unworthy…” I feel he just admitted what he couldn’t be. It takes real courage to be as honest and open in any relationship, with commitment issues around he has made you feel that its your fault masking all his faults making it easy for him. You are matured enough to take your own decisions, write your own story of life. There is a quote “The universe will keep hitting you with the same lessons in cycles until you learn“.So there is something to learn from the previous relationship.Life is never a fairy tale everyone’s life is unique you cannot compare yours with anyone. Accept the break-up, start working on yourself on your downsides. You deserve a person who is matured enough to understand your deepness and for what you are at the same time you must understand for who he is 🙂

Dear Kylee ,

Good to get to know you. I went through your post and this is what I felt .You are a deep thinker, so you have a vulnerability to seek answers for every conflict which arises within yourself , unless found you can’t be at peace within. One thing I would want you to concentrate is that as you mentioned ” Whenever I’m in a relationship I feel so so anxious like they person will just leave me and not work through the tough times“,I feel its a pattern due to an issue from  young or with a loved one in the family you have experienced a similar situation so deep that you have stopped believing in certain things. Due to which before you got serious about anyone that fear is clouding your thinking , so you enter into it with doubts and questions. I feel your subconscious is very strong, as you explained in the above situation with ex, you were very well aware from the starting that things weren’t looking good. So, the better you will be able to know yourself , the better you will be able to handle yourself in any relationship knowing how much you are comfortable pushing yourself in accepting and compromising for the other person. But certain fears hinders thinking clearly through situations as I mentioned above , you need to work out that anxiety factor and come into terms with it. Why don’t you give this a thought? (it might be right or wrong , so its just a view point from my side). Hope this insight helped you. Take care.