I think Im so smart…I’m so smart I don’t utilize correct punctuation anymore… no commas or semi-colons..i just use these dots… they seem to be my only way of writing and helping others to breathe correctly while reading. I have this theory about passing with time…and the theory is human beings are cursed. And as you pass through time it becomes tougher and tougher to experience what you felt during your young years. I am so open to ideas of thought and spirituality (not religion), but when it comes to us actually having the right to live a fulfilled life? I automatically say we do not deserve it. I mean really, the only things in the vast galaxy that care whether we have a pension or not..are humans. So my whole existence is to impress humans. I must impress them with my skills so they give me more of their hard earned money which will in turn allow me to afford more things that humans buy. I honestly feel we are mice in a wheel sometimes…and I believe it is the universes way of holding our soul.. Sure we can mine for diamonds so woman all over can have a piece of the planet welded to precious metals so their friends can hopefully find a man who gets her the same thing. Or even men wishing they could have enough money to propose with a ring in a box like that. The truth is..40 carats or no carats.. one day the shine will fade..the toys will go back in the box..and the food will rot. The hardest thing about passing or passage of time for me is what we USED to live like. And almost being a self-loathing american..I actually want to go back and help defend what this country used to be with the native americans. For reasons of greed and ruling we decided to ruin the most peaceful attempt of society the world has ever seen..and we have without a doubt spread the cancer. There is so much anger everywhere, it’s safe so say we all have eyes in the back of our head now.. and really..can you blame us? Well If i had it my way, we would all meet..everyone..in the center of a vast hillside..and just talk to each other. Some would bring food and drink..others would bring peaceful passages for us to re=think our impact on our world and each other. I hope one day we all feel so connected that none of us our afraid anymore.. EVEN in prisons and jails..i wish we could find a way to break the mentality of control and fear and turn it into something which will make the passing of our time..TRULY fulfilling.. I love you all..and please dedicate your life to your own heart.. dedication brings realization..and i realize i need others to feel alive.