We’ve never really had any issues parenting, thankfully. None that I can think of. Even when we were split up, we agreed and co-parented pretty well. He sees her pretty regularly, almost daily.

As far as stress relief, I like to play Happy Color or color in books

We’ve both agreed on therapy. We’re currently trying to arrange schedules so we can attend appointments. It was extremely hard to recognize that I was a toxic person but after a while, I did forgive myself. I forgive him too, but it’s more of a matter of not being able to move on. I keep wondering what I could’ve done differently.  Also, I can’t seem to get the image out of my head. Those are my main problems.

I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression major many years ago, but I never received care for it. At the time, I was one of the foolish people who think they can do it alone. After the birth of our daughter, May 2020, things got worse. Between my usual issues and ppd, I became very aggressive, mainly vocally….and much to my regret, I did hit my husband a few times. Not too long after that is when he cheated.

I wish it wouldn’t have came to losing my family, but I did start therapy and started seeing a psychiatrist.