TheAwakening,

I somehow wound up at this site. I wasn’t consciously looking but spirit has been guiding me lately and here I am. I have been recently going through a similar experience as yours. I suffered much physical, emotional, and mental abuse and the hands of my father and willing siblings. I am in my mid 50s and have done a lot of work on healing this and forgiveness over the years. I recently asked the Archangels to help me to go to the next step spiritually. I first thing that came was forgiveness. I realized that I had way too many long standing grudges and unforgiveness in my heart. I keep being directed. I knew that I had not completely forgiven my father. I asked for help in this and I was directed to a site that dealt with wounded people (as some have already stated above – perhaps in different words). I pulled a very painful memory from my past and rather than look at it through the same eyes as I alway have, I decided to change my perspective. I looked at it as a disinterested observer, then later as a compassionate friend. I could finally see my father as a deeply wounded man himself. I do not think he was trying to be malicious, he was just reacting out of a very wounded place himself. It does not change the way he abused me, but I can forgive a very wounded man. I know, because I am wounded as well, and I know that I have wounded others in my less enlightened days. For me, I had to go back and forgive and heal. I feel so much lighter as a result. I then started going through traumatic event after traumatic event and healed every one I recalled. Then I started moving to others and healing those. I continue to forgive the wounded person, which is now becoming easier for me each time. I just asked spirit tonight to send me more of these circumstances that need healing. The difference in my life has been astounding. I am so much happier and feel lighter inside. I smile more and send more kindness and compassion into the world. I have asked the Archangels for the next step (as I continue to forgive) and interesting judgment came up. Wow is that a big can of worms. I love it though. I am wrapped in love and safety as a result of all this. I am so happy for these changes in perspective. It is so freeing. May your present moment be filled with light and love.