I am a recovering co-dependent as well. Not alcohol. My ex had a porn addiction that was my fault and there was something wrong with me, not him. Whew! It has been just over 2 years since the “big awakening.” It took me a year to leave. It took me yet another year to get on my feet. Here’s the one thing I remember most about the process. One. Minute. At. A. Time. Did I give in to his words the last minute? New minute! What am I going to do this minute? New minute! Every minute became a chance to stand my ground. If I didn’t, oh well, it’s gone, what about this minute. I learned not to beat myself up for the “missed” minutes and focus on this minute. I actually did a youtube video this morning on Breaking Free. Maybe it will help you? My account is brightpathwaysnet4u. Connect any way works for you if you would like. We’re never alone, even when we feel alone.