Jennifer, Jess and John thank you so much for your time. You guys make my mind a bit. But still have impure kind of thoughts.
I understand that masturbation is okay. But I can’t understand why I feel this kind of feelings. I am afraid that if I go to a temple with my contaminated shoes or a bag or my jacket or something I’ll make that place dirty. Of course it’s a doubt that they might not contaminated. Because it is a sacred place and before u go to temple the 1st thing u do is clean your self up. So I am scared in case if something is contaminated it will add up to bad karma. And specially it is because of I thought about other people. I even stop praying because my room is not clean enough to pray with all those contaminated stuff.

It’s like Masturbation with dirty feelings/fantasies etc —- dirty sexual fluid —– contamination —– Bad karma

I don’t feel this way when I think about my boyfriend only while I’m masturbating.

I don’t know whether this make sense. But this is how I feel.

Thanks again for the replies 🙂