Hi Tee,

thank you. You did put things into perspective and made me feel better.

I think this year for me is about releasing attachments and learning to count on myself more, giving myself self-love, getting rid of naivety about how people treat each other. I think the hardest part after this toxic relationship with my ex-boyfriend and conflicts with my girl friends is accepting or understanding my part in those relationships.

When it comes to the toxic relationship, I still think I might have done things differently. Though I guess no one is a saint when being constantly hurt. I know I became too much dependent on him.

As for my friendships, I feel because of the break-up I became too needy and they didn’t let me know that maybe I’m overwhelming them until it led to a conflict.

I feel very overwhelmed with those situations, plus looking for a job and taking part in job interviews. Some days I wish my brain just switched off for 24h at least. At times I see some progress, Reiki and meditation help me momentarily and I hope time will heal me.

Hi Tee,

thank you for replying.

So my last days have been pretty tough. After yet again hurtful behaviour of my ex-boyfriend, I blocked him everywhere on social media but he sent me an email that made me cry. He put all the blame on me, called me a narcissist, said he could sue me for the stuff I said to a common friend (though I didn’t even say those words). It made me cry because I can’t grasp or accept the fact that the guy I was so in love with now is threatening me like that. Also he acts like he’s the bigger person wishing me all the best, etc.

Also I miss the support I would normally have from my friends in such a situation. You are right, they are going through their own stuff but it’s just hard to be left on my own like that.

When it comes to work, I also agree with you. I think if I don’t get a job I’d like by the end of May, I’ll take whatever opportunity arises. I’m just worried how I’m gonna work being so anxious and with little energy.

Wishing you a great day,

Anna

Hi Tee,

thank you for your message.

I don’t know if he is a narcissist, probably he is. I think the worst thing in this relationship was his silent treatment and restlessness, later I noticed lack of empathy. He changed from a nice guy I thought he was to this cold stranger from one day to another. I lost money because I moved to his country and was without a job for some time. Now I’m back in my country but unfortunately I didn’t cut off all contact yet…

I feel numb and haven’t laughed in a long time. I’m giving myself time though. It’s just looking for a job in such state of mind is tough.

<p style=”text-align: left;”>Thank you Roberta. It’s beautifully written and I feel your warm energy from a distance. I’m trying to spend some time in the garden every day and do journalling. The biggest challenge is to feel hopeful and have a more or less clear mind to decide on what to do next.</p>
I feel somehow maybe we as humanity are in a shift now cause many people are suffering but at the same time transitioning to a better place. It’s just the time in-between is very hard. I’m grateful for forums and people like you.