Hi, I have been a subscriber of the newsletters for some time now but somehow I found your entry I had to sign in for this just to write you.
I am twenty years old and in an extremely similiar situation. Except that I have that problem with my mum and my dad left when I was very young, even though I started seeing him regularly now.
I just moved out and I am telling you it is the best decision you can make. It is really hard at first, do not get me wrong. But it is so worth it and I can PROMISE you you will find you own way and leave all that negative stuff that your mother throws your way will eventually and gradually fall off. Our parents are bitter people, there is no denying. But we need to take care of OURSELVES.
It needs time though. You will heal and you will realize that there is no reason for you to be depressed at NINETEEN. God lord we have a whole lifetime ahead of us.

At first it was very hard for me to take responsibility for my life. Of course it is easy to live at home, all the comfort is not be forgotten. But I am telling you this step is so important, you can not be afraid of what is coming your way. YOU WILL BE OKAY on your own and you will discover that there is so much more to life than that shitty existence at home.

All the love you can imagine,
Bernadette