Thank you all for your replies. As monklet80 said, it is actually the last thing I need to be worrying about but I think my mind is trying to cope by finding some “fixable” problems. I tried following your advice nori, and I went to open the e-gift voucher page but suddenly felt such a terrible heartache. Unfortunately I think I’m starting to realize that I won’t be able to use it even if I want to – anita, I wish I were a stronger person who could separate emotions from the logic of just using up a voucher.