Thanks for taking the time to reply.

I’m really not sure what I hope will happen. You’re quite right though; there’s no certainty that even if I told her, she would do anything about it. I hope I didn’t come across as arrogant in that regard. The idea of being responsible for breaking them up however, sits very poorly with me. How can I put someone else through what’s happened to me more than once? My happiness (again, this is all very hypothetical) shouldn’t come at the price of his.

I came to realise that, maybe, it’s just that I am both made happier and made very uncomfortable by the fact she has gotten so close to me, and that I’ve let her. I have a myriad hobbies and little interests that can fill up my days easily. I don’t know when it happened, but they no longer work. They don’t provide a distraction.

I know she would be hurt if I cut her off, but I feel as if she would recover quickly. At this point it also feels like I’m heading for disappointment no matter my choice.