Yes. I am going through this. Letting him go is so difficult. I have had many painful, hurtful relationships, this one I wanted it to work out so badly. We were not married but I wanted to be married. I really thought this one would work. I look back and I made so many mistakes and decisions in the relationship and now he is gone and most likely with other women as I suspect. It will be a long healing process. I have had to seek medical help. I hate to even admit this online. It is so so so difficult. I miss him terribly and I am doing everything I can to let it go.