Hello! I apologize for taking so long to post again, I hadn’t had the time at all…

The day we had lunch was awkward at first, it was weird not saying hi with a kiss or hugging or anything, and we didn’t really know what to say, there was no conversation and I felt quite uncomfortable. All of a sudden we were like two strangers! He asked me what I wanted to talk about, and I told him the reason I couldn’t and won’t ever stand alcohol. I think he understood. I told him that every time I’ve be around it, only bad things happen, but he said that there were good things too. I asked him which things and the only thing he could come up with was “drinking gives you fun moments”. That made me angry because that’s exactly the kind of thing ANYTHING can give you, not just alcohol, but meh, I said that that wasn’t a good reason at all and he didn’t know what to say. That same day we went to the movies and awkwardness kind of faded away for a bit. It was a nice day and we spoke normally after that.

On the weekend I went to his house to watch movies and, while conversing, he told me that a friend of his had invited him to a party that night but that he wouldn’t go because he “didn’t want to drink”. Of course I didn’t believe him and I asked him why, and he said that he just didn’t feel like it, and that also when I broke up with him, his friends told him to get drunk to death to forget me, and that he didn’t think it was a good idea, so he didn’t do it. He said that he still is in love with me and he doesn’t want us to stray away from each other. I said I wouldn’t, and I really don’t want to, but I don’t know just how far is this going to go… At his house, we kissed and other things happened. Now, suddenly, everything feels like before but better… I don’t know! And I don’t want to go back with him but it feels like this time he really is trying to step away from alcohol. Today, we went to the movies again and he said that he “couldn’t wait until we could be back together”, and I asked him how could we be so, and he answered that maybe we could go back to being boyfriends after he would completely leave “the thing that bothers me so much” behind. And he said that he would do it for himself and not for me, just how I said it should be…

So I don’t know what’s next! I’m not sure if he really is changing, I don’t think he is, but either way I just don’t feel like being with him again… I indeed am still in love with him too, but now things feel more complicated than before

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