I’d rather not share personal details , but I’ve been in some of the darkest places I’ve known , due to external circumstances- I still have bad days but I have the tools to manage them now . My daughter has a few health issues and one of the reasons for staying is to be near her, she finishes an apprenticeship in may and is thinking of London to live as her friend is there and it’s more lively for her . My son and her just want me to be happy , I have felt an unwavering responsibility for my children even as adults , to the point of jeopardising my own happiness . I’m just so scared that I’m running away and not facing my problems
I will change job that’s a certain , I may find happiness in a relationship at some point , but at the moment I’m just existing as I cant afford to do anything but pay bills. I will be using equity to rent , ill still have a deposit for another house but a smaller one ,I want to enjoy life now but I’m so scared of making the wrong decision

Thankyou for your reply btw