Pearce, I know maybe here I’m just displaying Carlos defects, but you have to know that when it comes to Noah, he can be such a good man, actually in times a real dad, loving and caring, trust me, my main concern now is give stability to Noah, I can not and I dont want to go through my life changing partners and Noah growing up like that.

When I said “he was the man that was rescuing me” you have to know his love at that time healed my heart, after Noah’s dad left me, I was broken, in a thousand pieces. Carlos gathered every single piece and his love made my heart almost new, I swear.

What Carlos is today is not how he showed himself at the beginning, ometimes I think maybe he just got bored, it was such and adventure and maybe even a challenge to be with me, the adrenaline of having a secret relationship. Now we spent weekends together, and I dont know if maybe he got convinced that this “parent life” is not what he wants or needs, or both.

Trust me, I regret slapping him, with my whole heart and all of my tears, I f could go back I would have said or did nothing, I swear. It was the worst decision, something the best reaction is no reaction at all. I an sure now. But it is done.

Now we are not talking at all, he texted me on Tuesday that he loved me and missed me and I just texted back: me too.

His cousin is my friend, she talked to him and she told me he is mad and resetful because of my response “me too”

He said it was too cold, that he expected more, he said he made the effort to take initiative and start a conversation but my coldness killed it.

So he is still on his holiday, havent heard a word from him. But I still have his car with me, we will have to talk on Sunday for it. I guess.