Not sure how much help this will be or not. I carried a lot of regrets, hate and resentment towards my oldest Son and Ex Wife due to I blamed them for a Mental Breakdown I had over twenty years ago. I spent a lot of money on rehabs for my son that seemed to do no good, emptying my retirement account. My wife relapsed and left me while using drugs to deal with a son not finished with high school and my other drug addicted son. I hated her for what I perceived was her in decisions, my son for his weakness finally I tried to commit suicide myself 2x only to be saved by family and a co worker/friend. I crawled into myself for over twenty years living an emotional empty life on Psychotropic drugs that left me without any feelings, none. I buried my sister and mother during these years and shed not one tear. Bottom line is I realized I had to get off the prescription drugs, though diagnosed as Bipolar 2 with Anxiety disorder, I had to come back into the real world again. It took me 6 months to get off the drugs get my spiritual life in order before I could do the following. I wrote up a list of people who I have blamed or hurt over the years then one by one I wrote letters of Forgiveness to each one of them for actual or perceived wrongs I had done them. It was hard to do, to admit I had hurt others when I felt I was the victim all the long. In the end, it was so well and lovingly received it scared me at first! All but two people answered me asking for forgiveness for things they thought they did to me. Now today at 61, 38 years worth of crap I call it has been lifted off my shoulders, I am in great communications with my Ex, my Sons guys I served with in the Army and other family and friends that I never had a true human relationship with. Sometimes I feel we have to shed the armour we wear, to let down our guard and just reach out in love and understanding to say I am sorry, forgive me for what I did or said. My real fear was how do I forget after I forgive? Well, it slowly melts a way, it slowly leaves your thoughts. I find I don’t sit around and think about all the negativity but live each day as my last, one in which I only remember the good the joy others have brought into my life. I still take a pill for Anxiety attacks, but only 3 pills in the last two months rather than 90 in 30 days like before. Life is good, life is what we make it. Hold onto the good things, embrace them and let the rest stay behind. I don’t look back now unless the view is good!