i am trying to figure this out also. I have just come to realize how much of my life i have spent waiting on the approval of someone else and it never comes and that, in itself can make me feel more alone. How and why did I get in this situation and why now am I coming to see this? As they say better late than never and maybe one does not need to see how it started but how to stop it. I am searching and maybe we can help each other to see a pattern and stop the behavior. My name is Connie, and maybe we can make a new start.