Vin, perhaps what you have lost is yourself…by focusing so much on this other person. I have been guilty of doing the same SO many times in my life. I am just now finally learning to pay attention to myself. For so long I did not care about anything…if I could not have that other person, then NOTHING interested me. Even if I had that other special person, I hurt when they were away from me, I was jealous of the time they spent with their friends. I needed to have friends myself, interests of my own, but it was a catch-22 because I didn’t care about anything enough to put the effort into it. Making friends can be a lot of work…finding something to interest you is HARD when you don’t feel like doing ANYTHING. But, it IS worth the effort. I am finally making friends, and I have found something about which I am really passionate, something that makes me WANT to get up each morning…and most amazing of all, it has NOTHING to do with my special person. Now, when we are apart, I no longer sit around miserable missing them. I focus on my new passion, and you know what? I have more to offer to everyone. I am HAPPY, I am complete, because I found something that I love. Wishing you joy and happiness, and sincerely hoping you find what you need.