Thanks for replying Anita. Sorry it took me a while to reply but I really struggled with one of them. I don’t like to ask for help because I don’t want to be a burden to people so I usually just get things done myself. Another reason I don’t ask is because I don’t think people are willing to help. Initially when I meet someone, I would ask them about their lives, what their interests are, where they went to school like the basic introductory questions. I always feel like I’m the one asking the questions and they never really ask me back. So I figured they are not interested. But sometimes when I do get asked questions- I answer them as well but maybe not In too much detail because I get nervous and don’t know what to say. It just seems like my friendships barely get further than that so I can’t even call them friendships. Thirdly, my sister and are pretty close. From a scale of 1-10 were like a 7-8. That’s why when she holds this big of a grudge against me- I felt really hurt.