I’ve also had a few issues like yours and I searched for a therapist in my college, I have to say I was lucky because in our first session he knew i was holding something back, he understood me and he said the right things in the right moment.
My advice is to go out and try to find someone that you can really trust, let yourself be emotional, open, everything because a therapist really can help you if you trust in them and believe me sometimes emotions are just too confusing to put into words, but with their help you can make some sense with them.