Dear TheAwakening, First, I too, extend my heart to you and stand with you to help you feel joined. There was so much wrong done, and it seems human to ask your question, ” Is it important to look back and resolve the past before you can move forward? Or is there a way to nullify that which happened, to strike it out of your frame of reference?”
It seems that you are finding a way – by your first statement about emotions. What I have learned is that if you can feel those emotions – you can make space for goodness, kindness, love, joy……on and on….all the good stuff. I found this to work for me.
Telling your story is a beginning toward making space – for me, it alleviates that big SECRET sensation that holds shame, vulnerability, and all the things that Brene Brown talks about. I suggest looking into her work, it brought me many answers.

Again, I stand with you and pray that you may grow wings and fly courageously with this. Embrace the tension and know it will lose its power over your thoughts.

Peace, Love, and Courage
Brave Soul