Thank you so much for both of your kind words and encouragement. Sorry for my late response – I’m in AEST and writing this in between rushing to work. Yes I think self compassion is something I need to learn and sit with as I can be really critical with myself. I don’t wish to see myself as a victim either and I don’t really even tend to dwell on it or talk about it unless there’s external things in my life which can trigger all those feelings of inadequacy ie) a breakup or rejection from a job.

I guess my biggest struggle is knowing how not to connect everything back to my childhood. For example if a friend is giving me mixed signals or I feel excluded, unwanted or even a girl I started working with was really rude and standoffish towards me for no reason recently – How do I just accept these are pure coincidences or it happens to everyone and not internalise it as me not being good enough? Because I internalise everything and am also compassionate towards others I notice I also struggle to know peoples trues intentions. I often get disrespected or mistreated by others in small subtle ways and only now I’m learning to call them out on it but then if they’re super apologetic I almost feel bad that I took it personally and go right back to having no boundaries??

If you have any thoughts on the above that would be great 🙂