@TimBlack said:
Seriously? You came to Tiny Buddha why?

Thanks for your reply timblack. I had been unhappy for the last 14 years but I had become used to of living without hope. When hope was dangled in front of me and then taken away, then I felt the pain. I came to Tiny Buddha because I am looking for advice on how to be happy without my happiness depending upon others. I don’t want to just keep going from one day to another, I want to live my life. But I feel too lost at this time.

@NewLife123 said:

To use a “Beginner’s Mind” pay attention, be mindful, that is, of everything you do in your daily life- are you familiar with the concept of being Mindful?

anita

Thanks Anita, what you said makes sense but I need to figure out how to do this. I know a little bit about meditation by focusing on your breathing to clear your mind of any thoughts but not sure about the concept of being Mindful. Is internet a good place to look at to learn about Mindfulness or is there a book you could recommend?

Thanks for your replies timblack and anita.

I have been unhappy for the past 14 years. I had become used to keep going in spite of being unhappy. But when hope dangled in front of me, made me optimistic and then taken away from me, that’s when I felt the pain. I came to Tiny Buddha because I want to live and not just go from one day to another,

You both mentioned Mindfulness. Can you recommend a good book or website to learn this?