Hi all

I’m extreme negative guy in past of my life. Now I still learning how to make myself more relax and accept my life. There is no shortcut for it. Majority of human are grow up with education and materialism world. In education and life, we lack of learning positive energy. Positive energy is consist of varies feeling and personality.

I had experience bad feeling to my best friend. I am very jealous to my friend that why they can have girlfriend, but I am not. Even I have ex-girlfriend but I had bitter experience with her and I still feel my life is bad compare with my friend life. This is because I want have girlfriend love me. I am very lonely. I always thought one day GOD will present a good girl to love me. But the truth is not.

Recently I am realize that GOD is already give “something” very warm and comfortable for me. I need learn how to feel it and treasure it. It’s ME, my family and friends.

There is a quote:”Before you want love someone, you need love yourself”

I always wondering why I need love myself before love someone. Finally, I understood what the quote’s real meaning. If we don’t know love ourselves, we will don’t know how love someone. That’s why we need learn how to love.

I still in lesson of love myself and I read books. Maybe you can try read “The Power of Habit – Charles Duhigg”. Though it cannot help any depression but it has relevant to our personality and why we reluctant to accept changes.

I understand that I need have positive energy in my heart as below:
Compassion
Humble
Empathy
Sharing
Meditate
Desire(Moderate)
Training of discipline

When we share/help someone, we should not expect any return/benefit. This will make us feel we are worthy and great.
It’s not easy to adapt positive energy, but we need take first step, minor step, varies steps and time consuming even the results might not attractive. Nevertheless, it’s better than nothing we can do for improve us and make us grow up and strong.

Thank you and I wish you all will find happiness in life. 🙂