Yeah, I suppose the only way I can learn to manage it is by living the experience. Prior to a relationship, I do tend to just assume that all will be fine, especially with the ‘right person’. My boyfriend is most certainly a decent man, there are no ‘red flags’ whatsoever and we get on so well.

Thankyou for that advice. I will try my best to disengage from the thoughts and give them less power. Obviously this is going to take some time, but at least I now know where to begin.

My therapist said “I could present to you the most eligible Batchelor in the world, but you’d still find a reason not to be in a relationship with him.” Definitely some food for thought 🙂

I definitely spend a lot of my life over-thinking, over-analysing and thinking about the future. I do really struggle to just be present in the moment so that is something that I need to work on.

I definitely think that I have some form of Relationship OCD. There is a repeat pattern with my relationships and I am always the one to end things, mainly because I am so focused on a tiny factor about the person and I become obsessed with it and just have to end things there and then. I do also expect some sort of perfection with the relationships and constantly compare them to others. I never fear the relationship ending or me not being good enough, it is always the other way round… which makes me sound like a horrible person I know! I am absolutely terrified about being stuck in this cycle forever, and me always finding a reason as to why it cannot work 🙁