Dear Vidalevi, you state in the beginning of your document that you love your self and you are fine with the way you look. But from the rest of what u say its seems to contradict your former statement. I am not gonna sugar coat it for you, I personally believe that beauty is most of the times subjective, and charms and confidence are more important in the means of presenting yourself and make others wanna meet you and be around you, and maybe thats what you are truly missing…
Maybe try to strengthen your confidence even in practical ways, try exercising – boosts confidence and endorphins a hormone that makes you happy 🙂 , honor and care for yourself try to change your hair, change your wardrobe – make up, change your perfume. do all those little things that can make you feel better about yourself.
But all those little things mean nothing if you keep feel sorry about yourself and compare yourself with your friends. Who said that tall blonde women are the most beautiful? Please google Dita Von Teese or Maria Menounos or Salma Hayek 🙂
Maybe try to write a paragraph of all the things you like about yourself and built on those, celebrate yourself and devote in your personal growth and happiness. and even if you will never feel “pretty” enough wear your imperfections as a crown! and trust me others will follow your lead
Besides guys that only look for “looks” are usually not the “keeper” type 🙂