I love what I do so much that the work is worth it.  I got to this point by following all of the steps that I mentioned before.  If I had stayed at any of the jobs that I hated, I would be grumpy right now and probably overeating, over-spending, and drinking too much like I was then.  THIS is how a lot of people cope with work that they hate:  living for the weekends, hating Sunday night because Monday morning is coming, and engaging in addictive behaviors to numb the pain of their reality.  You have the power to keep this from becoming your life.  It won’t happen overnight.  Maybe you need to move.  Maybe you need to go back to school – I don’t know.  I DO know that you (and only you) can change your current situation.

If you’re in a job that is aligned with you and is something that you enjoy, it doesn’t feel like drudgery.  Find what you love – then figure how how to monetize it.

It truly sounds like you are in a job that is a terrible fit for you.

Have you had hobbies or experiences that just make your heart sing?  Or make you lose all track of time because you love them so much?  Or even jump out of bed excited in the morning because you get to go and do… whatever it is?

If you can identify something (or maybe some things) that fit into that category, then you have a good start.  If not, your job is to try new things that interest you until you find something that excites you.  Learn more about it – see if it still interests you… follow your curiosity where it leads you.

You are still very young (I’m twice your age), and there is so much pressure to figure out “what you want to do with your life”. You don’t have to figure that out.  All you have to do is decide what to do next.   That’s all.  Life is full of possibilities, and right now you are living one possibility and finding that it doesn’t work well for you.

Find something that makes you happy.  And find another job – life is too short to be this miserable when you have the power to change it.  And I promise you that you do.