Trixie, I can relate to how you feel. I’m going through a similar situation. We parted ways earlier this year and she moved to another part of the state (4 hrs away). It is very difficult as you know, to not just pick up the phone and call. The last words that she sent me back in sept were that she, ” missed our conversations.” I’m not sure what to do at this very moment but knowing that other souls travel a similar path let’s me know that we are humans searching for answers. In the the words of GraceInMotion, “it will be okay.”