I think the reason she feels like it won’t work between us is because of the way we met, which was through him. That, and she would feel guilt because it would affect my boyfriend if we started anything. She doesn’t think anything healthy can come out of seeing each other…

I know. I don’t really understand it myself, but I’ve chosen to respect her wishes. However, she stated all of that around the time we first started talking. Since then, we’ve gotten to know each other very well through messaging. She even said that she’s developed feelings for “cyber” me and the way we communicate. We both said that we couldn’t wait to talk to the other person, and when we’d have to leave the conversation for a brief moment, we’d rush back.

When I saw her last weekend, despite how nervous I was to see her, I felt oddly comfortable in her presence. I then realized how much I liked being around her and talking to her in person. Somehow, I feel incredibly comfortable opening up to her (perhaps it’s the emotional bond?). I could tell she was into me as much as I was into her (wanting to talk to each other, her body language, confronting each other of our feelings, us hooking up). I find it odd how after she set her boundaries with me, she tore them down, despite the fact I was still in a relationship with my boyfriend and she was going to school with him.

The last time we messaged, she told me that everything on her side was real (feelings). I could tell she didn’t want to stop talking because we said goodbye dozens of times. She was the one trying to pull the plug on our conversations but she kept saying how special she thought I was and that she hated that this was happening (our final conversation). Despite the things that we did were wrong (the emotional and physical cheating), we both didn’t have any regrets.

After that night, I’ve been unfriended and blocked on Facebook. She never mentioned blocking me, but I’m thinking it may be due to the fact that she is still going to school with my boyfriend and maybe she didn’t want to have the chance of seeing my profile. I still have her number and email, and I hope that maybe sometime down the line, once things with my boyfriend are settled, I can reach out to her. Maybe that crosses a boundary and that will push her away? I have no clue…

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