Great questions.
I am stumped.
The honest answer is this girl who I have met. I am unhappily married with two kids.
She is really pretty, great company and makes my heart sing.
I want to be with her every single day.
No, I have not cheated as am filing for divorce.

Replace b/f for husband and your life chapter is approximately 10% of what I am putting my wife through.
Fate my be real but do not put your life on hold.
Either take time to with good friends to move on or put it on the line to him and react accordingly.
Listen to John Newman – Out of my head.
Let your heart bleed so it can heal.
I am trying but drinking 8 pints per night is no answer.
To be harsh, you have feelings for him. If he really cared, why put you through this.
I am that bloke. Move on and find happiness. Please