Hi Sarah

I hope my input here will help you see you are not alone. I am 47 and had a pretty good life until 2009 when my world fell apart….i mean literally…i lost everything including my sanity. What i went through is still affecting me and i have been spinning out of control ever since trying to fill that void. I have moved countries and back again numerous, times tried different things that my friends thought were mad until i realised i didn’t have any friends anymore. I was the “loose cannon” Now i am a rock bottom with no job no money but i have one friend who has stayed with me through all and even though i am still beating myself up emotionally (and drinking and smoking heavily…something i never did prior to all this…)

So i decided to get help and went into a clinic for severe depression, paranoia, anxiety and general feelings of hopelessness.

There has to be an end and a way out…sometimes we have to fall apart but at some stage we have to climb out and never be afraid to ask for help, professional help that i know from experience, friends can’t deal with and will back off as they did to me.

Due to the decisions i made in my life, life will never be the same, ever but we just have to have faith and keep going forwards…step by step…….

My warmest Regards to you…..and alll others who post here…..

• This reply was modified 11 years, 6 months ago by Sara Lindsey.