Hi guys thanks for your input. I’ve been feeling the need for space to let things cool but don’t know how to go about it, we share a house, expenses, bills, pets etc. I just want everybody to be happy and move through things.
Anita, I went away for work in Hawaii for 2 months met someone and just enjoyed the company enjoyed feeling temporarily “worth while”. While I was out there I admitted to what I had done and really overall unsure of what direction I was going to take at the time and pursued that for a few weeks. I had a weird work situation which was causing me a lot of issues and stress combined with distance just didn’t make a great equation. I came back still not knowing what we were going to do. He was willing to work at the time (5 months ago) and it seems to be leading towards a spiraling repetitive fight.
As far as apologizing to the families go, they were ready as far as acceptance, they said they really didn’t need the apology (though it was appreciated) but have their forgiveness and want happiness together or separately.
I don’t want this to take away his or my own voice, opinions and who we are at the core.