I don’t know how did you find out that from my story… but it’s all true. My parents got separated when I was really young – 6 years old to be more precise – and I stayed with my mother. She was never the mother I expected her to be – she was either at work or ,when she was jobless, out with her friends. When she was at hope she was fighting with my grandparents, who were taking care of me at the time. I don’t remember her ever asking me how did I feel or even simple things like how was my day. She never cared and that made me feel unwanted and unneeded. The other children thought my mom was so cool for letting me stay up late and not being angry when I got bad grades at school but I was actually envious about their strict parents. As for my father, he moved to another country and I’m lucky if I get to see him twice per year.

I haven’t think about it from that point of view, but I think you are right. A part of me might have wanted him to ask me to stay even after what I told him.

I am not angry at him but I’m angry at myself. I’ve let him have way too much control over my feelings and he is someone I’ve never even met. That scares me but I do not want to lose him. I want to fight for us to be more than friends but after what I told him I’m not sure if he will want to ever talk with me again. The last thing I want is to beg for his attention – he will probably think that I’m unreliable and I’m just toying with him.