Hello,
I hope this information isn’t too difficult to deal with. I am telling you this so (if you have any children) you can break the chain! Also so you decide to go no contact as soon as you legally can. I wish I had. I found out about my mean mother by searching mean mother. The resaults are a bit different now. If you goo gle (search) npd mother you will find a lot of info. But the world won’t be the same. you will see the world as meaner. You may realize that it is abuse. You may start to see that behaviour everywhere. So, search and reasearch, only if you are ready and truley want to know. It’s not easy. Some people are so abused they can’t love-even moms. I would not recomend thanking her for anything though. You did not ask to be born-that was HER choice. She’s probably toxic-get out and heal as soon as you legally can. Don’t feel too weird about finding out it’s really phychoogical abuse-we all are, to varying degrees. sorry-keyboard on android is terrible.
Learn to have boundaries, learn to love yourself and find inner peace. I wish you luck on your journey, I hope this info is coming to you at the right time! A year will go fast 😉