I especially like this part and can relate to that: “The way I see things, bad things can set life on a unique path in which good things can later follow (sometimes years later). I have had some very difficult experiences, but without them I would never have met my husband or given birth to my son.”

I think that the first part of my life wasn’t easy for me at all. But because I didn’t turn to evil – I didn’t become the same person as the people who hurt me and I didn’t fall into alcoholism – I got this “reward” (my boyfriend, our peace, …) in my present life. And it makes a perfect sense, doesn’t it. But many people still do not understand this and go down the same path of evil.

I know the theme of attachment very well. And even though I don’t have unhealthy attachment to my boyfriend – as I realize that one day one of us will die – I believe deep in my heart that we will meet again in next life. 🙂

Thank you for letting me know about the article View of Interpersonal Karma. I’ll check it!

“I can’t change the karma that I created in the past lives but I can be aware of what I am creating now.”

I agree. I think that Karma can also be a source of suffering for some people who do not understand it properly or they interpret it as a “destiny” or “punishment” for unwholesome actions made in the past life. We cannot place the blame on Karma and give up our responsibility for our lives and good/bad actions.

These “deja vu” moments, which you mentioned, are also interesting. Who knows if it is really only a vivid imagination or spiritual experience. But you are right and I definitely agree – the most important is the present moment, here and now, and the effort to create good karma for all of us.

Hello Anita again. 🙂

Thank you for your advice and supportive words. I must say I find you inspiring and strong. Your life is certainly not easy with these disorders, but with your good attitude and effort it is certainly much more joyful.

I look forward to more discussions with you. 🙂

Hello Chris,

I would like to thank you for your answer and kind words, too. I must say that you seem to be a very wise soul… almost enlightened, I would say. 🙂

“Only you should have control of your emotions. The hurt is in your own interpretation of their attacks. If you observe how they’re just programmed to behave this way and watch them play it out, instead of feeling hurt or attacked, you may just feel sympathy for them having such little awareness of themselves.”

– I think I understand your words very well here. It is a bit harder to put these wise thoughts into practical life, but I am working on it. The fact is that if I find myself in a situation when I have to defend myself, I feel a bit guilty when I do so… a bad program in my head, bad ego… but I don’t want to change, I mean, I like thsi sensitive part of my personality… I am able to feel the joy in daily activities, in life… and I think it is because of my sensitive, spiritual part… I don’t want to kill it in me… but I guess I still don’t have control over some of my emotions.

Hello Roberta,

thank you for your answer and kind words. Yes, you are right that there are a few Buddhist places in Czechia. However, I haven’t considered attending their meetings yet because they do not provide individual sessions or counseling. Also, they belong to so called “Diamond’s Path” and I don’t know this branch of Buddhism. Do you?

But I do study by myself – I’ve read Dhamapadda, some lectures by Dalai Lama and I follow “Buddhism in English” and “Plum Village” on youtube. I am looking forward to reading Thic Hahn’s The Heart of Buddha’s teaching during Christmas. 🙂

Thank you and enjoy the weekend! 🙂

Hello,

thank you a lot for your kind words. Your message made me smile. 🙂

Can I ask what country/cultural background you are from?

You might be right that the problem could be that I hadn’t had enough contact with children of my age before I had to go to the “children clubs” and school. When I was outside, I usually spent time alone or with kids who were older… and maybe because of that I wasn’t able to join a group of kids or find kids who were similar to me.

Your note about the church is also interesting. Maybe you remember I mentioned that I am from the Czech Republic. The Czechs are confirmed atheists. Actually, I don’t even mention in front of my family that I feel spiritual connection to Buddhism because I would face a lot of criticism, rolling eyes and sceptical remarks. (Only my boyfriend is more open-minded and he likes Buddhism, too.) So, parents didn’t have and still don’t have a chance to let their children spend time with other children in the church if the kindergardens are full.

And it brings me to another point. I couldn’t discuss my awareness of some spirituality in me as a child… there was no one who could talk about it with me. My mom usually chased away my spiritual imagination by saying that it was non sense.

And I really like your words “…not everyone likes peaches. Some people do, others don’t. There is nothing wrong with peaches they are just peaches…” I guess I just need to remind myself of this fact more often. 🙂

Maybe I am thinking about it too much. Maybe it just still hurts me somewhere inside when somebody blames me for being myself. And it is true that it is very hard to be an introverted person in this very extroverted world and to be emotional and spiritual in a society which is very sceptical, pragmatic and materialistic.

Thank you, Helcat! 🙂

Thank you, Anita. And I wish you a nice and calm Friday. 🙂