Yes exactly! He is my best friend though. We had a deep talk today, mostly me talking, and I feel better, hopeful. But this to is an endless cycle, if my past exp dictates this future, I will feel like I wrote again soon. However this is the first time he said he only wants me to be happy, and if leaving is what I need to do then I need to do it. Hes never said that before. But im still not there.