Mike,
Thank you so much for your answer.
You guessed right, I did not have any emotional connection towards husband.
I had emotional connection with this guy . We shared our history of getting dumped by our exes in past. It all started off here. Then sharing other stuff and so on
I was the one who ignored initially which is bad in any relation as confrontation is better.
Then later I went back to him and after great struggle I goty buddy back .
So you see there was my mistake.
Later again I only broke promise of not being there again(once in past).
So I feel now he hates me and I made him suffer unnecessarily!!
I feel now I wud have continued atleast as frnds.i go crazy thinking why I listened to my friend n drastically ended everything!!