This is what is happening to me and the guilt is eating me up inside. I was extremely drunk and I don’t remember much but someone kissed me in the club, only a few days ago. I pushed them away immediately after realising what was happening and I made me and my friends leave the club instantly, but I gave them my number after the Kiss while I was leaving. I don’t remember giving them my number and I don’t know why I would do this. I love my partner more than I ever thought it was possible to love someone, they are my whole world and picturing a future without them is extremely painful.

I told my partner instantly the next morning  and they were hurt but they forgave me and we are working through it. They aren’t as upset about the kiss (since I pushed them away instantly) but they are upset and confused about us exchanging contact details.  I am trying to be there for them, as I need to prioritise their feelings, but the guilt and regret feels like it is killing me and I am uncontrollably sad. I cant eat, I cant sleep and I cant stop crying about this. I need to move past the guilt and prioritise my partners feelings but I don’t know how.

We had the most perfect relationship and they love me so much, the fear of losing this relationship and ruining our perfect life together is making me sick. I hate that I hurt them and it is killing me

I’d really appreciate any advice or suggestions.