Ugggh… I’m so sorry that this happened to you. And by someone you were close to in real life. 🙁
Well… I know this is probably not much consolation, but the silver lining is that you can do whatever you want considering the nature of your work. So really, you’re free to go whereever you want and explore. Think about what it is you’ve always wanted to do and go for it!
I know that can’t be easy in the wake of being ghosted by someone you love very much… I’ve been ghosted myself and it hurt (and it wasn’t even with someone I knew IRL! It honestly took me a a few months to get over it so I can only imagine what you’re going through.)
Just know that you are not alone and …again this may not be much consolation, but if you ever would like someone to talk to, you can feel free to message me.