Hi, Matt.

I know a lot of things can get us down. I have felt like leaving this world, and have attempted suicide. I also have experienced the the loss of several friends to suicide.

I won’t ever do it. Occasionally, the wish crosses my mind. It passes. My life is far from ideal still. I won’t stop trying to love myself and others and to find purpose and joy.

I totally get where you’re coming from, Matt. I don’t believe we choose this place, either.

Is there something you like about life? A sunset, the ocean waves running up the shore, an animal you think is cute or funny on youtube?

You are human, Matt. Just because of that, you are inherently worthy and lovable. Maybe other people aren’t so loving, but we can love ourselves.

I happen to take antidepressants, which do help me cope with life. It’s still possible for me to hit a rough patch and not feel like being here. I do yoga, exercise, journal, sometimes do art.

You aren’t all alone. You are a part of everything, the stars and galaxies are made of atoms and energy just like you.

Maybe finding a good counselor or friend to talk with could help you. Possibly medication could help you feel better.

just suggestions from my own experience, take or leave as you like.

Please hang in there, Matt.