HI Giovanni
I understand your original question but my health problem has never gone away, just calms down, which is the nature of ME. Also my response was not to get any compassion or sympathy, I’m simply telling you what was going on. I stayed in the relationship for as long as I did because it was a marriage, for the long haul and to make it work that’s the point. But the situation was not normal as I was dealing with his violent temper schizophrenia etc etc making it difficult to just get out easily as you’re living with fear. Not easy for other’s to understand when they haven’t gone through it. You totally misunderstand that as I have never been treated with love and kindness and given any support that’s the reason for staying in the marriage as if I am a clingy person, not me at all. You have not really understood anything I have said. I am not where I am today because of my thought patterns, it’s because of the being dragged into other people’s issues and dealing with “toxic” stress that I should have not have gone through. Not interested in emailing you further, but thanks. See Peter and Bill’s comments before your original comment, they seem to be on the same page as me….
Jaz