She is there….but hiding. Everything you went through was a lot to process and she needs time to heal. It sounds like everything you have experienced has been not only life changing, but can be considered as growing pains of sorts for your soul. Keep in mind, you will never stay the same person, as we are always changing. That is a part of life 🙂 A goal could be to remember that the feelings of depression and doubt are just that. Feelings. Tell yourself that it is ok to feel them, and then release them. I know it is easier said than done. It is something that I am practicing myself, as I have been dealing with depression most of my life. I take anti-depressants and anxiety medicine but it doesn’t make the feelings go away. Instead, when I do have clear moments, I try my best to look at what is positive in my life. Even reflect on what I’ve been through and how much stronger as a person it has made me. It is a journey. I believe you will find tools that will be best for you during the down moments. You are strong. I know I don’t know you personally, but I believe in you.
Bright Blessings,
Jenna