pandpeach – It is incredibly uplifting to know that there are complete strangers out there who care and are willing to help. Thank you very much for your wonderful advice! I shall certainly take it into account 🙂 yeah, my initial aim here is the try and find myself through this, I have done things I swore I never would, so maybe its time to relax, take a step back. I am constantly looking for someone to make me happy, but I am losing myself in the process! I think my plan of attack is to just relax, I am only 17, I need to stop desperately looking for love and enjoy being young and free, love will come in time, once I know who I am! Thanks again – all the best!:D