Hi Sarah-jane,
I’m sorry you are feeling so, so low today.. You sound like I’ve felt myself once upon a time. I don’t know your story but I feel your sadness and pain like it was yesterday…but here i am today glad i let those very real thoughts and painful feelings of hopelessness pass by. I really hope someone close to you knows you are so down. I’m sure your family and friends love you would be there to help with whatever you need. Take special gentle care of yourself you are worth it