I feel i should start from the start only. We married 18 years back. I was working then and was at a good position in a big IT company. My parents and other relatives were against this marriage as they my husband was not settled and many relatives told me that his family is little different … i did not listened and we married… i had first child and still i continued to work by managing work and home both. after i was pregent with my second child, i decided to take break and look after kids for a while. I was thinking that I will take 1 year break and then will continue work with the help from my husband. But it never happened.. after 1 year when asked him to share some responsibility of kids so that I can resume my work.. he started saying that he has problem in keeping his job so he has to work till 11 in night… since then it had been 11 years and he still comes home at 10 pm every day and keep saying if he come early he will loose his job. I am also  from the same industry and i know he is telling a lie. Also he is getting regular promotions and hikes. I understand there are work pressures and deadlines to meet.. but in 11 years this situation never changed ??  If i am sick , he dont want to cook for kids and me and leaves for office early… there are so many issues…. I never wanted to marry for money or status …. instead I was looking for guy who will understand me and love me and talk to me if I am feeling low… i am taking anti depression medicines for 8 years now…. doctors say i have major chance of getting paralysis attack due to stress…. i went to the counseller also…. he dont want to join me there …. sometimes i feel i am useless, this is not the life i wanted…. this is not the relationship i wanted… but i am stuck because my teenager son started feeling marraige is a worst thing…. he has seen our fights and my lonliness…. I try to convince my husband that we as a family need to share things and need to communicate to have happy and healthy atmosphere…. but he dont want to do it…. i had helped him a lot while he was struggling in his job… i went out of the way to give him the space when his career was in trouble… now if i am asking for some help , he is denying… i may be wrong in asking some help from him but i want to live for my kids… youger one is still small and she needs me…

My elder son is currently in 12th std and daughter is in 6th standard. My parents are independently living in same city but they are always sick … my son needs attention as he was not performing well in academics … my relationship with my husband is not so good … we fight a lot ….