Eliana- There is nothing to be sorry for. I have come to terms with it and know that i was delt this hand to learn something from it and grow as a person. I was very restentful as a teenager but as i grew older and i delved more and more into spirituality i have learned so much from it and everything that has happened to m. In a way i am thankful for it, because had i not gone through any of that, i wouldnt be as wise and understanding as i am now.

The only reason i thought i had lost myself is because when some one asks me a hard question about something i like, or asks me if i like something, it takes me a while to answer them. Or when i think i find something i enjoy, such as gardening, i am all for it at first, then it becomes mundane to me. Thank you for your reply!

Anita- I should have said everything is better and calmed down now. We did get help for my son, We worked things out in our relationship, my mother has been gone for a long time now and i have came for not only forgive her but understand how she could become this way, through learning about her child hood. I am better now myself concerning the issues that came with that. The problem is, I have no idea who i am, what i like and dislike, and it is a confusing journey to be on. I also feel like i want to share my story with others who have been through the same thing to help them through it. Although i know i can not really help them, but more or less guide them and tell them to listen to their intuition and gut feelings. I was there, and i wish i had some guidance through those dark times. The problem with that is nothing FEELS right. I thought about writing a book maybe?

But as for discovering who i am is there any advice you could give me on where to start? Thank you for your reply.