Thank you for replying Anita.
I met my husband when I was 15, we’ve been married 27 years now – we had always talked of emigrating but the time was never right. A job offer came along but by then the kids were adults. I suppose we just wanted to get away to try something different in our lives. We lived in close proximity of family ( one particular member being very toxic) – and just wanted a change – my husband has settled here but I miss our girls and friends so very much. I know I can’t have my cake and eat it and I know I’m very fortunate to have this opportunity – but I’m emotional weak …. And just feel empty and need to decide where I should be/live