Hi Megan
I sense some empty nest syndrome a feeling of abandonment from friends etc and lonliness? When kids grow up on us it’s so sad. You long for when you were their whole world and then you blink and they’re grown and gone. People nowadays are so wrapped up in themselves and all their business they forget the people who used to be important to them. I have been on disability for many years and I don’t really have many people on my life besides my husband. Holidays are so lonely. It’s funny I often think the only people in my life are people who I pay to be there. Drs etc. Now that’s sad. My husband always tells me not to expect anything from others and I’ll never be disappointed. I sadly agree. People never call me and say calling to see how you are can I do anything for you? I am a giving person most people are big takers who can suck the life right out of you. I can totally relate to your post. We all want to be wanted and cared for. I also remember the days of tons of people around now it’s quiet and lonely. No more big italian get togethers. Unfortunately what we want from people support encouragement is something we don’t get. However I’m Always the first to give help, encouragement etc and I’ve stopped all the vampire using relationships in my life. If you’re too together people think oh she’s doesn’t need anything. Yeah right. Keep your chin up and stay sweet.