Hi,

I completely understand the feeling of loneliness, it almost feels like my entire life has been situated around the word. No matter how hard I may try to surround myself with people I feel good about or I think will be good for me, it never seems to work out in the long term. Something always happens and I end up in the dark with no one else around. I’m going through that dark section of things right now, and its difficult to get up everyday and realize where I am in life compared to these perceptions I have in my head. I have so many online friendships that started out in person and have fizzled out. People just stop responding and it bothers me more than I feel like it should but I have a hard time controlling my fears when it comes to socializing. I want to reach out and have healthy, happy relationships so badly but I can’t bring myself to do so. I would rather stay alone by myself where I know I’ll be okay at the end of the day, but I’m not comfortable being alone when others are around. I’m constantly ‘restarting’ my life and do not have people I can rely on who actually care and that hurts, but I know I am the main cause of this, just how am I supposed to deal with this? How does one fix it? How do I go out and do things on my own and stop worrying?

I suppose that’s what’s going on in my brain right now. I hope that me telling this will help you in some sort of way? I’m not sure, about much really. I, too, have been looking for someone to talk to but it’s very difficult when I can’t even deal with human interaction most of the time. I hope you are doing okay, in some sense at least. I’m sure there are a lot of people also dealing with being lonely as well, if it’s any consolation.